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I've waited so much and I left so much important thing behind. It seems like its no use for me to feel regret haha. I hope there are still chances for me to become what I'm supposed to be instead nothing that hurts me deeper and harder. I've wasted my whole life on you. My existence has nothing to do with you anymore. But what you left is like the scar that hard for me to get rid off.

You're still part of my life that makes me to what I am. Thanks for having me in your life and left me away from your life. 

Cake

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What does all of these mean?

You changed your dp, you wasted your time, you avoided your friends, you avoided your loved one.

It is all because me? All the night calls.. All of these time I've waited for you. All of these lucks that I gave to you. How is answering a question could be that hard. I need your answer.

I've been waiting for nothing. I've been spending my time for nothing. I think this is the only way that I could to stop myself from hurting. You're not asking why I'm doing this. You're acting like nothing.

I guess, there's no turning back. I'm not there for you anymore. I'm not there to answer all of your questions and wonders. 

Please, I'm needing you..

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Why you're using meowkajin?

Oh man. I really dont mind if it's too obvious but you know there are still reasons for it.

But the main point for me to come back here is that I think that I'm not really having the guts to tell anything about what I feel and what I do, I learn from mistakes and I had to stop from asking why because I know, you do mind if I ask. You making me all disappointed......

Please

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Its getting further and further and I've no idea when is the time for me to reach the place where I belong to, a dream that never will comes true eh?

Well, I still cannot eventually find what I really desire for and, it keeps bugging me for 1 and half of decades

I know that I should have be grateful for every single event that came into my life but myself, I still cannot move on for the past that makes myself fill with guilty and anxious. 

For every few steps that I made, I'm not sure if it is worth for me to even giving opportunity for myself to start a brand new.... fate? I really don't know ........