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Apart from being sad, I guess that's the only feeling I rather not to be. I've been suffering with this ever since I don't even know how long. It seems like I've always been cursed and basically I've been tearing up my eyes for quite some times.

Ah. It comes again. The old friend situation that never ever going to leave me away from my life. Dear old friend, I believe that one day, you'll be leaving me for good as I know that myself have been hurting over and over again. I dont even know how much I've been falling into pieces. It hurts so much that it keeps bugging me every time

I've always wanted to move on. It needs a huge sacrifice, and I am not sure whether the sacrifice that I shall made, is worthy or not? Are you even worthy for me to leave? Do you even know how much I've spent for you? Guess you'll never noticed and understand why I do. Maybe it's been written for me that I'm always going to be a toy, to everyone. Either toy that you frequently play with or toy that are useless for you to have with.

Every single new place, it just never stop. From meeting strangers to friends, and to someone that I adore, and to someone that I've to move my feelings with. I need to stop falling too deeply as I know I know I know someday, the feelings will hurt me deeper. 

I still can't believe it still happens. Stupidly giving myself a fake hope again.